I have had a rough few years. My savings have finally run dry and I have borrowed from family and friends to the breaking point. This is the first time I am honestly not going to be able to pay the rent.
this, among other things, has got me in a dark place. Not to dredge up the why's and wherefores, Siggle and I have been having several disscussions concerning her dating Andrew (Thwap). My initial concern was about her children. After that, I have been hurt, jealous, and a general doushe. I still care a great deal for her and her children. Obviously I would have been critical of ANY guy she would date. I have been picking on him because he is short, and trying to start things up with him because of that. To his credit, he has not taken the bait.
Clearly it is I who is the small man. I have always been someone who defended people getting picked on for something they were born with. Acting that way myself truly sickens me.
When Resa posted my private email I SNAPPED! My last word to her is something I have never said to a woman in my life. For that I am eternally sorry and ashamed.
I clearly have some issues. When i FINALLY get an income, I plan to see a therapist to help me work through them.
I KNOW a person can't do terrible things and expect absolution just by saying they are sorry { except in the Catholic church
It is my hope, however, that they can accept my apology in the spirit it is intended and i wish them good luck and happiness in their budding romance!
Sincerely,
Dennis (Eathotdeath)







I know times have been tough for you, EHD, and I hope things pick up. You know I love Siggle dearly so I will not say anything more.
